| even tho like nobody reads this.... i just thought i would say....  !!I AM SOOO HAPPY!!
the end. <33
be ready, be willing, be strong
~maggie~ |
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| LIFE SUCKS!!
i hate the fact that everything....no matter what it is, when it happens, or whats going on....my life finds some way to screw up!! i honestly think that i was like a horrible person in another life....and now i'm being punished for it. i swear i'm not allowed to be happy. life effing blows!!....i mean....it seems like every perfect moment....the one perfect chance for me to have that smile, the one i didnt know i had....the one that i can only get once in awhile, something ALWAYS goes wrong and i cant have it. i go from the top of the mountain, all the way down....wayy wayy down. and hit the valley really fast and really hard. but hey at least i remembered something....
THIS IS WHY I DIDN'T/DON'T OPEN UP TO PPL!!
because i always get a nice big smack in the face as a wake up call. but i'm used to being the "good friend". i'm used to sitting around, waiting for something better to come along. i'm used to pretending. i'm used to acting like everythings just fine when everything is actually going wrong. i'm used to it. i'm used to finding a guy i really like and then realizing, "oh yeah....i forgot. i dont get the guy in the end. she does....or she does....or some other chick will."
i really and truly dont think that i am ever gonna get the guy in the end. and for some reason if i do....i have a feeling its gonna be because i got tired of sitting around, waiting for something i wanted, and wishing i could actually have it when it showed up....and i'm gonna settle for the mediocre, average joe guy that really doesnt give a crap about me or anything i want in life
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| feelin kinda blah lately. just wish life could work out how we want it to. but just like holly said...."if we got everything we wanted....life wouldnt be interesting." so i guess i should say....i wish life wasnt so interesting.... 
anyways....been talkin to a lot of friends lately. new and old. i'm really glad i went to boot camp this year. i had to come home sun. morn. and almost didnt go back. i'm wayy glad i did. i met some pretty cool kids.  but i really dont have much else to say....so here's a lil something for the guys out there that like a girl and dont know how to act or what to do. and for the girls that like a guy....but arent sure if they are good for them....
I want a guy that will....
I want a guy who will text me every single morning and tell me good morning and every single night to tell me sweet dreams.
I want a guy who will hold me when i'm crying and wipe away my tears.
I want a guy who still thinks i'm beautiful, with no makeup on, wearing sweats and a big t-shirt.
I want a guy who won't pressure me to do things I dont want to.
I want a guy who will show up at my house with soup and a movie when i'm not feeling well.
I want a guy who kisses me on the forehead.
I want a guy who doesnt kiss and tell.
I want a guy who actually listens to me when I talk.
I want a guy who's excited all day because he's looking forward to our date later that night.
I want a guy who is content to just be able to hold me and wants nothing more.
I want a guy who can't help but smile when I walk into the room.
I want a guy who's perfectly content with staying in and watching movies and cuddling.
I want a guy who won't lie to me about where he's going or where he's been or who he's been with.
I want a guy who gets butterflies when he hears my name.
I want a guy who's not afraid to tell his friends he loves me.
I want a guy who doesnt mess with other girls when he has me.
I want a guy who doesn't care about my imperfections and loves me even more for them.
I want a guy who will hold me while we watch the sunset.
I WANT A GUY WHO REALLY WANTS TO MAKE ME THE HAPPIEST GIRL IN THE WORLD.
<33
~*maggie*~
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| Hey ya'll!
so i'm back from BLT! it was the best! i met a lot of new ppl. and a couple of em i'm def not gonna forget. since they live pretty close. but yea. just wanted to update and say i'm sooo happy! = ) but yea. if ya'll wanna hang out leave me a comment or call my cell.
<33
~*maggie*~ |
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| BLT!! here we come. tomorrow at 1115 a bus load of us ROTC kids will be on our wayy to have a total kick ass time!! = ) i can't wait. its gonna be amazing! tonite. i'm goin out to dinner with my daddy. and then comin home. he's leaving to go to work. and i'm packin!! (better make sure i have my ROTC pants this year....lol.) and i'm prob goin to see Mallory tonite too. that way i can see her b4 i leave since she hasnt been here!! = ( i missed her face! but anywho. tonite and this up coming week are gonna be pretty crazy....but i'm excited! and OMGSH!! i am more excited about next weekend. spending it with Mal Pal....hehe. i cant wait!! OMGSH!! and 6 months for me and jeff is comin up on July 3rd. hehe. (only a couple ppl know what i'm doin. and i'm soo excited!!) anywho. i'm gonna get goin. gotta go get ready for dinner. i'll post when i get back from BLT!
<33 mucho!!
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